2pocrypha: The end- Afterwords

you have to give up

i have to give up

we have to give up

they have to give up

and after that?

and after this

whatever happens

happens

Any words for the loyal readers?

Thank you! I miss my wife!

Still?

sickeningly

Despite all the treasures before you? Offering themselves? their undying love and loyalty?

endlessly.

Well, any words to your wife then?

I really am sorry. For everything you knew about and didn’t. My punishment does not elude me. In your absence my pain is sharp, constant, and will last my lifetime. In your absence I truly, once and for all, certainly did lose my mind! I talk to God, and to the many voices that keep me company in the prison of solitude Ive carved for myself. I spend nearly the entirety of my time completely alone, both at work and at home, while memories of the lake and your letter torment me. This is my punishment and I no longer wish to be free of it. Thank you for those seasons, for teaching me what it was like to have a family.

And finally?

and finally, I will be here, but it won’t be me, Im leaving the reigns to someone else. I’m not fit for all this, I was not made for any of it! There will still be performances, you still need to laugh, to be kept company, and we still need you to love us, for no one else seemed to be able to, they mustn’t be blamed, the fault was all mine.

Good season.

Great season.

End

End.

Identify: A memory

Channel: (auditory hallucination)

Contents: lilting laughter, sunlit lackadaisical loving.

Next: The sunless.

Complete: unraveling of the mind