sam’s club after church

the dog that weeps after biting is no better then the one that does not.

your guilt does not absolve nor purify you.

considering what i know of the dark machinations within the hearts of mankind

being aware of my own darkness and what im capable of

knowing that there are many others capable of equal and greater cunning

i suppose it makes sense that i am so utterly terrified of other people

i am SCARED of people

perhaps if i wasn’t aware of such darkness within myself, i wouldn’t know to fear it in others.

perhaps instead of hell, the fear, anxiety and endless paranoia are my punishment.

after all, if heaven is a place on earth…

as i fade into nothingness an old hymn echoes

sings my souuuulllll my saaaaavior god to theeee

how great thou arrrrttt

howwww greaaaatt thou arrrrttt