i should have paid attention when we were watching natsume’s book of friends

isn’t it funny when the lyrics of a song that has nothing to do with you at all just so perfectly and specifically fit your situations?

it’s a bit different when they’re songs specifically chosen for you by someone else i suppose. the. it’s not so crazy to think maybe they’re trying to tell you something. Slowly over the least year I feel i’ve been discovering so many coded messages in those two playlists. There are too many coincidences for it to be just coincidence right? it’s like reading a dead person’s journal or letters.

if i’m being a tiny bit fair to myself though, i wish you’d just talked to me. i always said that’s what i needed from the people in my life. Direct straightforward communication, i’m too crazy to trust myself when it comes to reading signs and signals. i’m not the most reliable narrator after all.

i do still wish i caught on quickly though, but then i wouldn’t be where i am experiencing all that i am.

whether you do or don’t, you will regret it. this is the essence of all philosophy.

my new favorite genre of anime is slice of life isekai. just people in another world doing things like cooking, book making, farming etc.

the spirit of them reminds me of super cub and natsume’s book of friends.

your favorite things, i wish i gave them more of a chance.

yknow what though? i do also prefer mild tasting foods now.

they come with a lot of subtle complexities. it’s much more interesting to discover those than it is to be chasing the thrill of being overwhelmed by those extreme peppers.

i guess people really can change.

every time i hear a song that gives me that sense yknow? i can’t help but add it to that playlist.

it’s ten hours long now, i wonder if ill ever stop adding to it.

probably not

it’ll go on forever and ever, i doubt you’ll ever know about it,i’ll never send it to you or invite you to collaborate on it. i don’t want to be a bother, ive left it in the hands of the fates.

i always wanted to be that kind of guy, who could just let things take their course.

i’ll just always keep adding to it, for me as much as it is for you now.

it’ll always be there, even when i’m not

gosh i’m tipsy and rambling again, whoops!