I skipped school very often, to play Kingdom Hearts 2

  I don’t think many people are inherently shitty. I think people are the result of their circumstances and experiences. I often catch myself in negative, judgmental thinking. I have to correct myself afterwards, I don’t know if I ever catch myself before the thoughts land. Is that possible? Does it work that way? I’m not sure. I got annoyed with someone at work today for doing a lot of whining and complaining. To me it seems like they’ve got it made, mom and dad pay for most of the big things, apartment, car, etc. The fuck are they being such a baby for? Then I remembered that I’ve spent the last few months whining and moaning about my break up, and many friends and even my family at some point consistently helped me out so- comme ci comme ça in regards to the whole thing I guess.

I bought two books today, one for reading: The Brothers Karamazov  one for pressing flowers in: A Cold Welcome. I’m going to carry it around with me, whenever I see a flower I like, I’ll pluck it, and keep it in the book forever. When the book is full, I’ll put it on the counter top of my place, facing anyone who would come to visit. I think it’s a funny title to present people with “A cold welcome”.  If anyone dared to open it, they would find it full of lovely flowers, the welcome would then be very warm I think. I love things like that, beautiful things, sappy things. I love being called beautiful too, it’s happened a few times recently. It really feeds me. I would like to be more beautiful on the inside too. I’m trying, earnestly. 

I’m falling asleep. I would like a kiss on the lips as I go to sleep. When’s the last time I had a kiss? 

December? December 27th? 28th? 27th.

comme ci, comme ça.