imprisoned in the past

true story, one day in church, when i was like 14 maybe, i looked over at the pew next to me, there was a lady playing with her baby on her lap. they were so happy and cute and bubbly. i realized right then, it would never be me and for some reason that shattered me lol. i forgot, that my real dream was to be someones grandma, that was the real me. whew.

anyways

dearly beloved, we are gathered here today