an awful idea!

ahh for some reason, for as long as I’ve been thinking up this website idea, its kind of been in my mind that I should have a blog or status updates kinda section. I think, perhaps, the core of wanting to do something like this stems from this feeling of alienation or dehumanization I’ve often complained about, that comes with having some sort of “platform”. On streams and in videos, I’ve always been very open about who I am and what’s going on with me, so this may just be another extension of that. I’m sure there are situations where this could backfire, and maybe in hindsight I’ll read this very post and cackle at the very palpable irony of it all but what can ya do. I’m an idiot perhaps, or just mentally ill. I don’t know shit about fuck, that’s all I know, and I liked this idea so where we are.

Uhhh today’s updates

-I’ve eaten way too much the last few days I feel sick

-I’m super skressed about finding a job that doesn’t make me wanna kms so I don’t have to move back to my good ol abusive home.

-I’ve had several, SEVERAL dreams involving my ex these past few weeks, its been a lil cruel!

I’m not sure how frequently I’ll maintain the blog, or if I’ll announce new posts, perhaps no one will ever see this! buuut yknow, turning an idearr I had into a reality is kinda good for me so, it is what it is.

chus!