I always take walks after eating now, you taught me to.

Everyone but you

I left work early today and took a walk after a nap once I got home. One person stopped me and said “It’s a sidewalk not a runway!” Another told me I looked very dapper, another told me they loved my hair, I held long intriguing eye contact with another one until she snapped her eyes back to her boyfriend.

Later on I went to a bar with some mates, one of their friends flirted with me the whole night, to the point that my friends commented on it multiple times. 30 minutes before, we had stopped into starbucks to say hello to my mates girlfriend who was working. Two of the baristas also laid it on rather thick with their passes at me.

It’s been a dense day, I just got home, looked in the mirror and thought about how I really dislike my face. Gods, it’s simply too much to be anything at all!

Perhaps I’m being silly! Maybe I should just fuck the brains out of everyone who wants it! These days though, I have no confidence when it comes to that. Earlier today my eyes welled up with tears as I cut the yeast donut dough into rectangular shapes.

Still I’m thinking of you.

First in my heart, last on my mind.