not devastated just tired

“Cholelithiasis with punctate and 4 mm gallstone within nondistended…” blah blah blah

cholelithiasis means increased risk of gallbladder cancer which chemo could be the catalyst of so

no chemo no surgery i just need to hold on for 17 more days then i’ll be

“𝖙𝖔𝖑𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚”

yes 27 as we foresaw

“we can have a grand birthday and then”

die on island

“𝖆𝖘 𝖜𝖊 𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖆𝖜”

yes.

resigned to fate, i hope the realizations i came to in these past few weeks means i will not come back in any way shape or form if that is indeed how it all works. it is with no bitterness or sorrow when i declare that

𝖎 𝖏𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝖜𝖆𝖓𝖙 𝖎𝖙 𝖙𝖔 𝖊𝖓𝖉