“is it gonna hurt?” “yes.”

i never know which videos are going to do well

i can never predict when i’m going to go viral again, so it’s useless to try for that deliberately .

another person told me they suddenly recognized me from that maid outfit meme

and right now a video recounting my encounter with the police is also going well

i was gaming with a friend and we were talking about it

he has a habit of reading my mind

the sentiment was that as fun as it is to interact with everyone, new followers and long time friends, it’s a bit bitter sweet

i feel pathetic chasing this thing.

jiving dancing performing

i really do just want to make people smile or maybe even laugh

but it’s a bit sad to know they only love the me they perceive in that video specifically

with whatever character i happen to be playing

not really me for me, whatever that may be

i’ve watched it happen several times, to my friends and my peers.

a video does well or goes viral, people pour in for the show, slowly they leave, one by one.

at least everyone has such nice things to say

there are these flowers called forget-me-nots

i just remembered them

today

isn’t that sweet?