i spilled a lot of powdered sugar on the floor

something is wrong

then the voice in my head will say “you’re fine, why are you acting like this?”

But I’ve been so jumpy and flinchy and I feel like puking. 

Then it’ll say “yeah you’re psyching yourself out, you know you can make yourself believe anything” 

I imagine someone at work coming up and saying “I’m so sorry for your loss” as they’d place a hand on my shoulder 

in real life i flinched at the imaginary hand 

“you’re such a piece of shit”

and that’s true, but really i think something is wrong 

i don’t know

i had to apologize for my demeanor at work today, the person deserved that as they were being so nice