it doesn’t need to be unique to have value

it’s hard being crazy

“kinda seems like fun from the games and shows and comics and all that”

it might be, i think the real issue is being aware that you’re crazy, but not being able to do anything about it, not being able to stop yourself from acting crazy.

“but if you’re self aware enough to declare yourself as crazy, doesn’t that then mean you’re not crazy?”

i really don’t think that’s true. like deep in my bones i know it isn’t.

“well what can you do about it?

nothing good.

“why not just embrace being crazy then? sounds like you’d be free!”

because it makes me sad. sad for myself and sad for the people that have to care about me.

“why’s that? what’s sad about it?”

don’t you know?

“why would i know?”

well aren’t you just me?

“i really don’t know actually”

“i’m starting to doubt it.”

i’m starting to doubt it.

post script.

it’s really killing me that i forgot her birthday. i can’t recall or imagine imagine what was so completely occupying my mind that i would forget my kid sister’s birthday.

she’s my favorite person,she’s the most important person in the whole world to me! im her biggest fan. she’s what matters most to me!

i think.